The, “Thats Life” excuse doesn’t sit well with me.

FINE THEN! WHY DOESN’T EVERYONE JUST LEAVE ME! ABANDON ME! ERIC DID IT, TAMMY DID IT! GO AHEAD U DO IT TO!

I’LL TELL YOU WHAT… I’LL JUST GROW UP BY MYSELF. I’LL BE A GOOD DAUGHTER. I’LL GO TO WORK. I’LL GO TO COLLEGE. I’LL DO ANYTHING YOU WANT! JUST STOP LEAVING ME!

TO MY BEST GUY FRIEND… YOU CAN HAVE A GIRLFRIEND AND A FRIEND THATS A GIRL.

TO MY COUSIN… I LOVE YOU SO MUCH…. BUT I’D RATHER YOU DIDN’T LAUGH AND PULL AWAY FROM ME LIKE YOU DID… YOU COULD HAVE SAID NOTHING. IT WOULDN’T HAVE HURT AS MUCH.

I’M SORRY THAT I AM WHO I AM TODAY… BECAUSE MY BROTHER DIED… MY BEST FRIEND! I WAS HIS SHADOW. AND HE JUST LEFT ME. I KNOW WHERE HE IS AT…. AND THAT IS WONDERFUL… BUT WHY DID HE TELL ME THAT I HAD TO WAIT TO GO? WHY DIDN’T HE TAKE ME WITH HIM!

TO MY SISTER… I LOVE YOU SO MUCH… BUT LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE OF IT. AND IF YOU RUSH BY THE IMPORTANT THINGS… YOU MISS OUT ON WHAT YOU COULD OF HAD.

TO MY BROTHER IN LAW… I LOVE YOU TO! BUT SOMETIMES YOU CAN BE SUCH A JERK TO ME. AND I ALWAYS THINK BACK TO THE NIGHT WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD BE THERE FOR ME… AFTER ERIC DIED… AND YOU DID THE OPPOSITE… INSTEAD YOU AND MY SISTER BOTH LEFT ME.

TO COLBY… I AM SO SO SO SORRY I DIDN’T DO MORE FOR YOU. I MISS YOU. I CRIED FOR SO LONG AFTER YOU DIED. I WISHED AND WISHED FOR ANOTHER CHANCE  TO TELL YOU JESUS LOVES YOU. YOU ALWAYS HELD A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART.  I WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN THERE TO SAY GOODBYE TO YOU.

THAT, MY FRIEND IS LIFE. THAT IS MY LIFE. BUT DON’T WORRY… I WILL FINISH COLLEGE… AND GO TO WORK… AND BE WHATEVER GOD WANTS ME TO BE. BECAUSE THAT IS LIFE! THAT IS WHAT I’VE MADE IT.

MY NAME IS DENISE.

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