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The, “Thats Life” excuse doesn’t sit well with me.

{ November 3, 2008 @ 7:18 am } · { Defining Me, family, life }
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FINE THEN! WHY DOESN’T EVERYONE JUST LEAVE ME! ABANDON ME! ERIC DID IT, TAMMY DID IT! GO AHEAD U DO IT TO!

I’LL TELL YOU WHAT… I’LL JUST GROW UP BY MYSELF. I’LL BE A GOOD DAUGHTER. I’LL GO TO WORK. I’LL GO TO COLLEGE. I’LL DO ANYTHING YOU WANT! JUST STOP LEAVING ME!

TO MY BEST GUY FRIEND… YOU CAN HAVE A GIRLFRIEND AND A FRIEND THATS A GIRL.

TO MY COUSIN… I LOVE YOU SO MUCH…. BUT I’D RATHER YOU DIDN’T LAUGH AND PULL AWAY FROM ME LIKE YOU DID… YOU COULD HAVE SAID NOTHING. IT WOULDN’T HAVE HURT AS MUCH.

I’M SORRY THAT I AM WHO I AM TODAY… BECAUSE MY BROTHER DIED… MY BEST FRIEND! I WAS HIS SHADOW. AND HE JUST LEFT ME. I KNOW WHERE HE IS AT…. AND THAT IS WONDERFUL… BUT WHY DID HE TELL ME THAT I HAD TO WAIT TO GO? WHY DIDN’T HE TAKE ME WITH HIM!

TO MY SISTER… I LOVE YOU SO MUCH… BUT LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE OF IT. AND IF YOU RUSH BY THE IMPORTANT THINGS… YOU MISS OUT ON WHAT YOU COULD OF HAD.

TO MY BROTHER IN LAW… I LOVE YOU TO! BUT SOMETIMES YOU CAN BE SUCH A JERK TO ME. AND I ALWAYS THINK BACK TO THE NIGHT WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD BE THERE FOR ME… AFTER ERIC DIED… AND YOU DID THE OPPOSITE… INSTEAD YOU AND MY SISTER BOTH LEFT ME.

TO COLBY… I AM SO SO SO SORRY I DIDN’T DO MORE FOR YOU. I MISS YOU. I CRIED FOR SO LONG AFTER YOU DIED. I WISHED AND WISHED FOR ANOTHER CHANCE  TO TELL YOU JESUS LOVES YOU. YOU ALWAYS HELD A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART.  I WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN THERE TO SAY GOODBYE TO YOU.

THAT, MY FRIEND IS LIFE. THAT IS MY LIFE. BUT DON’T WORRY… I WILL FINISH COLLEGE… AND GO TO WORK… AND BE WHATEVER GOD WANTS ME TO BE. BECAUSE THAT IS LIFE! THAT IS WHAT I’VE MADE IT.

MY NAME IS DENISE.

It’s been way to long…

{ October 30, 2008 @ 5:19 pm } · { Defining Me, life, Work }
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I haven’t posted on here in forever! So I’ll go ahead and share what little I have to share.

Okay so I have a new job. Yes. I work for a company called Micahtek. The link below leads to a short video, explaining about the place I work. When you see all of those people in front of the computers… that’s where I work. =) I’m a phone agent. Yeah I like it a lot. But Grace would you believe me if I told you that I get so bored inbetween calls that I actually took up reading! AHH I know it is so scary for me to. =) I am reading a book by Frank E. Peretti called, “This Present Darkness.” I am nearly half way done with the book.Micahtek Commercial

Okay another thing! You have to go to my bands website! And visit the videos page… and listen to our new song called, “Idle.” It is totally our favorite! I wrote it ehh… last month I think. Timbers of Two

Anway… so I work 3:30 to midnight, Monday through Friday. Which means yes I miss Wednesday nights. But the job is so much better then retail any day. I wouldn’t trade it for hobby lobby thats for sure. They just eek… You can’t have a christian based company and expect to maintain that reputation with a building full of sinners. lol. I’m serious.

Anyway.. I better get going.

Go visit those links!

~Denise Yvonne~

The Love of My Life is being shipped to me as I type!

{ April 13, 2008 @ 12:01 am } · { Defining Me, life }
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Okay so it’s been a couple weeks.. it isn’t here yet! I’m so excited I can’t stand it! It will actually be 3 weeks come Tuesday! So I’m not so happy with that considering they told me one to two weeks… but! I have money down on it. So I’m still excited! Wanna see????? I know you do!

My Guitar

“Ever feel like all your friends’ life are going somewhere and yours is stuck in limbo?

{ March 17, 2008 @ 5:55 pm } · { Defining Me, life, Possibilities }
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Married, having children, going to college. Everything I’ve ever wanted.  And someone else is living it.  Some of them don’t even want what they have. I do! Every time I try and accomplish something, something or someone makes it more and more complicated. Surely it wasn’t meant to be this difficult? So I say, okay the scripture tells us, Mat 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

I’m only 18 I know! Is this my punishment for wanting to do things the right way? I’m so sick of the same old questions that only lead back to the same scripture! What more can a limited girl like me do for God? I’ve been ripped from so many paths and opportunities. Would someone please tell me what I’m doing wrong before I go insane? I work, I go to school, I help out my family in every way possible, I do whatever I can for the church, and for the Lord. I’ve been raised in the church. I’ve been a member for over 7 years. I’ve been saved and sanctified, and filled with the Holy Ghost for the same amount of time. I play the guitar and write my own songs, and I taught myself sign language. I’m enrolling for college in the fall. What am I missing?

Lost. Confused.

~Denise~

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